Last Sleep in Canada

That is, if I end up sleeping at all tonight. I'm getting that pre-departure buzz - the one that will hopefully get me through all the things I've procrastinated doing until now. My bag is upstairs packed, which is actually surprisingly organized for me. I guess it went quickly since its not really a lot of stuff - though it's crazy how much space medication and toiletries take up . This week has been such an experience in itself. I came home from orientation feeling so ready to go, and now it almost feels like that whole prep month never happened. Last week I felt really committed to living simply, embracing the experience of living in poverty. Yet the amount of money I've spent preparing to go live in poverty makes the whole thing feel like a bit of a joke. It really brings home that however much I hope to learn during the next few months, I a will never know what it's like not to have the privileges of a middle class Canadian student. Probably a good thing to realize now - and a theme which I'm sure will come up again.

I am a little nervous about not having said all the goodbyes I wanted. There are a lot of people I meant to e-mail, but for the most part I couldn't really think of what to say. My mind is in such a different place than it was last week - even writing this blog isn't really coming naturally. It's like coming home from a crazy semester at school and just turning everything off because you're so sick of thinking. I feel that way about reflecting and sharing. In a way I'm glad I had this bit of a break, to relax a bit, to just chill and not overthink everything, to sleep in....and also to go back to living the way I usually do with slightly more awareness. A little bit of a practice run for April? We shall see.

Anyway, I'll try to keep this blog up as much as I can in Ghana, and I'll try to be a bit more communicative/coherent/interesting in the future. It's important to me to keep this blog since I feel like I often check out when telling people about my experiences - like, I feel they won't get it or understand or I don't want to get into it so I just say "it was good" or "interesting" and leave it at that. So this is kind of a way of being honest without having to feel awkward or to have to actually speak out loud. Anyway that's the hope....now, to finish my masters applications!